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It’s pathetic that I can’t shake the feeling of feeling good enough in anything that I do. It’s pathetic that ive accepted that i want to be alone all the time because nobody else seems to want me around or seems to be perfectly fine with never inviting me to be around. I mean I guess that’s life and not everybody is going to like you but damn could I at least get a little bit of love. I deserve to feel like I’m wanted to be around 24/7, I deserve to feel love from somebody other than my family or friends who are family know. I mean I guess everybody is right and I shouldn’t care who wants to be around me or not and I shouldn’t care about trying to be good enough but how do you not feel that way? How do just simply not let it bother you? It’s almost as if I feel a need to have to know the outcome of things, even when things haven’t happened yet, and I know it’s weird but I can stop feeling like that. I just want to know what’s wrong with me? why do I always have to feel like there’s something wrong with me? It’s become a thing where people don’t stay in my life for long and I just want to know why not… saying that I am no longer going to feel like that is a lot easier said than done and it sucks.
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